Soothes my Heart n' Soul

MUSIC that is!!!!  I find myself being overwhelmed by my overactive mind!.... there are so so many thoughts, ideas, and actions to accomplish!  It's like a horrible traffic jam inside my crazy brain!.... kinda like L.A. traffic!  On weekends I'm so exhausted and just plain old worn out from work that all I wanna do is veg... be a hermit!  It wears on my whole body, physically and mentally!

If you know me well.... you know that I am an extremely emotional person!!  It's not only because I ended up with all of the "odd" genes!  The blood running through my veins is sensitive!  I truly care about others, my family, my hubby... friends... etc.  Sometimes I care too much, and... break down crying to a patient in the pharmacy because I'm so worried about them!  Now... that's embarrassing!

Music is one way that seems to soothe my heart, my soul... and just takes away all of the confusion of life and worries... and my flowing tears. ;)  other times the tunes can make the tears flow faster!

I'm just.... HaPpY, that I can find comfort in something so simple!  THANK YOU Playlist, Pandora and to the million CD's I have! :)

Summer???

WHAT SUMMER!!!!!!!
I'm laughing now, because I can't think of what happened to our summer!... I ask Josh the same thing, and... "I don't know", is his only response.
That is, because... our summer was blended with headache, stress and a physical/emotional/mental breakdown that nearly put me into the insane asylum!!!.... sorry lovey!
It was a pretty gloomy summer which lead to fewer days at the beach, but more with my dear friend Kindra & Franklin and our other Cali fam. :)
My boss has been on maternity leave since May and the workload was an... OVERLOAD!!! The pressure of running a high speed, now-now-now pharmacy, put me over the edge!  During this time, I'm embarrassed to admit, but... I have an addiction problem!  DIET COKE!  I like to put them in the freezer for about 15 min or so to get them extremely cold!... which leads to freezing, and then a possible EXPLOSION, if forgotten!!  Well, this happened at work.  But, I put it in the freezer with about 10-15 thou dollars worth of vaccination.  Busy morning lead to crazy day... ADD kicked in... end of work day.... feet were smokin' from getting out so fast!....Whoops!...diet coke forgotten about!  Next morning, came to work and explosion occurred along with loss of vaccination!  Do I still have my job???... Yes! :)  But that doesn't take away the tears I cried and stupidity I Still feel!.... such an idiot! ;)
Maybe a week after "idiot incident", my first car accident happened.  A gal pulled out in front of me, and I t-boned her...(her fault). I'm so thankful we were both ok though!!! My lack of responsibility and motivation to get my front bumper fixed was a misfortune for us! Not even a month later, I had MY FIRST car accident (my fault!) and rear-ended a woman. I was going fast enough that she hit the car in front of her!! I can't remember much of it!  In the moment I didn't even know how to get my seat belt off! Yeah!... I was pretty shook up and drowning in tears n' snot! Besides a slight whiplash and mental loss, nobody was hurt!!!... at least people! Needless to say... our car was totalled! Yeah, like I said.. I hit her pretty hard!  THANK YOU to my rescuers... my hubby, Nate and Evan.  They saved my day and Evan was able to brighten it up with his well known,"facetious & unique" personality!!!  Thank you, Thank you, Thank you guys, with all my heart!!
After all this chaos, WE needed a break!  I literally said that if I didn't get a break, I was gonna have a mental breakdown!!
A week off with support and love of family certainly helped ease some of the burdens we were feeling.  But finding a new car in the meantime (while on vac/"break") was a little stressful!  Thank you to great friends who were right there to help us out!!... Thank you Kristin n' Brock!  We love you!... xoxo
So, that's our summer.... bits n' pieces remembered, and... we are grateful it's over!

Thought of the day:
"They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel.”~AU ~CWB

Bittersweet memories

Oh, I am horrible at keeping a "journal"! Whether it's writing thoughts and memories down on paper or typing it up.... it just doesn't happen! But!... if you gather all of my post-it notes, it might turn out to be a pretty entertaining journey! What can I say other than... I really do have good intentions!
Well, this time of year certainly brings back some extremely exciting news and heart-breaking memories!  Our first exciting news was Josh being accepted to USC Dental School!... his dream come true!  Then news of being accepted for an in-vitro miracle program.... Another dream come true!!!!  We were then denied a month later of our chance for children because of us continuing education.  I still don't get it!... but it was definitely one of the most emotional rollercoasters in my life!  There are just some experiences in life that seem to still carry on in your heart, whether good or bad. I just hope that through all of mine I will have learned sincere patience, faith and love that's truly unconditional!
I believe I have "broken heart syndrome"... LOL! No!... really though, I would say that wanting something so badly that is part of life, creation and God's plan, is... and should be a normal feeling and want... yeah?! So, it's only normal for my heart to continually and truly ache for children!
I can only say Thank You to family and friends (especially of lately...Kindra) that have let me love on their kiddos! And... how blessed I feel to be a Primary teacher, that does not only learn more from the children, but I also get to feel their warm, sweet spirits. While sitting in Sharing Time, one of my kids loves to come sit on my lap. While we were sitting in a circle talking about the Holy Ghost, she grabbed my hands and wrapped my arms around her. She then said after a moment, "Sis. Whiteley is like a blanket.... she makes me feel warm like the Holy Ghost! " Wow!... it took all I had to hold in the hydrant! Oh, how I love each one of them dearly! If my joy of kids is not meant for this life, then it will be plentiful in the next!!
So!... 3 yrs ago, Josh got accepted to DDS school!!... YAY!!  I honestly can't believe that Josh is in his senior freakin' year now! It kinda makes me feel like we're seniors in HS for some reason!! ;) How time passes by... like the blink of an eye, eh?!!!! He has worked so so hard and has been so diligent and dedicated to not only his education, but to me as well! I, just.... can't even express how proud I am of him!! He has pushed himself beyond expectations and limits required! He is so compassionate with not only his work, but with his warm embracing love towards me and many others! If life leaves us only with each other.... I would still be the LUCKIEST woman ever!!

Thought of the Day:
Be Thankful.....

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary
Because it means you've made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are
also thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles
and they can become your blessings.
~ AU ~

We found!.....

JOSH'S TWIN!!
A while back when American Idol started again, I'd have a friend here and there call and say, "Nat, have you seen American Idol?... There's a guy on there that looks just like Josh!!" I just thought to myself... yeah, yeah... so some guy has a few similar charachteristics as Josh. Well, my sis called me today and said the SAME THING!!! So, I'm like OK!... I'll get on my comp and see who this Lee Dewyze is!! OH MY!!!!..... IDENTICAL.... SCARY.... CRAZY... TWIN... WOWZERS!!! His lips, nose, eyes and even some of his personality... shy guy, humble, LOVING! "I love you guys... I love you all!!" were his remarks after he won AI. So!... there you have it! Josh's twin is Lee Dewyze!! 
I don't get goose-bumps very often!... but him singing this song does the job!  He's pretty amazing!... but, NOBODY beats my hubby! :)



Thought of the day:
“There's no half-singing in the shower, you're either a rock star or an opera diva.” ~JG

Catchin' Up

Life has been not only been crazy, but... crazy busy!  My motivation went from nothing to rockin' out at a concert, going to a wonderful and dear friend's first baby shower....

Driving miles to get some squeezes and.... get my first pedi!  Watching some Real soccer w/friends and... lots of peanuts! :)  Missing my sweet hubby while he was drilling on teeth in Panama and fishing in Flaming Gorge!!!  And doing what I love to do as a hobby.... take photos of sweet, darling, adorable, lil' loveable kiddos! 

                              

       

                                                

       

    

        

             

                

Thought of the day:
“I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.” ~CR